Sounds sort of hippie/new age-ish, right? Totally.
But, I believe it.
And so, here we are on my new blog where I will recount all the things I “say yes” to these days and the glittery goodness that comes with being open to this brave, beautiful world of ours and what it has in store for us.
If I’m being completely, totally, and utterly honest, I was embarrassed to start a blog. I still am.
Who would read what I write? Who would want to read what I write? Will people find it weird?
For me though, this blog is an opportunity for me to become more vulnerable and to hold me accountable to my writing.
For the longest time I’ve wanted to write. I love to tell stories, I love to evoke emotion and transport people from their daily lives, even if for a brief moment.
I’ve tried to write for several years now, but full-time jobs, dating, family, social life, anxieties and wanderlust always got in the way. There was always an excuse.
Personal insight tid-bit: Believe it or not, I’m quite shy. Typically, I don’t do things unless I know I’ll excel at them – or at least have a chance at excelling. Not only that, but I tend to run away from things that are uncertain. Quite frankly, I’ve been playing it safe.
I don’t know if anyone will ever read my blog. I don’t know if anyone will ever read the book I’m writing. Does it really matter though?
Alice Seabold, author of The Lovely Bones, kept a sticky note on her computer while she was writing her now best-selling novel and it read “For the Five”.
So no, it doesn’t matter. If I can write something for the 1 or the 5 or the 5,000 then it’s worth it to me.
This life is all about human experience and interaction. How do we treat those around us? Do we care for our neighbors, strangers, family and friends? How do we connect with those around us?
If writing connects me with even 1 person my life will be richer. And hopefully theirs will be too.
So here I am, ready to say yes to writing.
Since I’ve made this decision, I’ve had a lot of people ask me why I’d leave a job I love to do this? Why now?
This year, my dad has been quite sick. It’s been hard living far away and not being there for so much of it. I got to a point where I felt I needed more flexibility to be available for whatever happened. And so, I made the extremely difficult decision to leave a job I love. To leave a job with wonderful co-workers and opportunities to follow this uncertain path.
It was one of the hardest decisions to make. Sometimes it’s still hard and I panic at least once a day.
I was lucky to be at a point in my career where I could freelance and still have an income while I write, but it’s still scary.
You know what though? I’ve learned that scary can be good.
Scary can push us past the limits we’ve consciously and subconsciously set for ourselves.
Since I made this decision and dived into the unknown I’ve noticed other aspects of my life open up and change as well.
I’m more willing to do some of those scary things that my once shy self would have avoided like the plague.
And if I fail? So be it. A wise mentor told me that we could all afford to fail more. I believe him.
So here we are. Join me in this one girl movement of saying yes to the world and let’s see what happens!